Mat wrote: ↑Sun Aug 15, 2021 8:12:30 pm
Jarrad your answer to my Q, fantastic, scrappy and I loved it. So what the fuck is this weak shit? Your answer to Tegan RE: her vote out
"I had no idea you were even receiving any number of votes once tribal had started. It had been mentioned but I was confident it was going to be on Ben or Mat that night, and I was willing to do whatever I had to do to make it happen, but I was told from pretty much every person that I'd reached out to very shortly before votes were due, that it was going to be you. That night I hadn't even voted up until the very last minute of voting and so I think my avoidance of telling you the vote was on you was my own denial of it being real. I didn't want to tell you it because it's not how I imagined things going, and I felt hurt and betrayed in the same ways that you probably feel hurt and betrayed by my voting for you"
-Who betrayed you?
-If you were willing to do just about anything to save Tegan and you had some much info coming and going, why wait till right before votes are due to find out where votes are going?
To my understanding before tribal started, I was frantically trying to figure out what to do with Tegan. I'd heard a shit ton of things that could have been happening that night. I thought that Baden, Sharn, Daisy, Ben, were gonna be voting for you. I didn't necessarily want that to happen but was willing to do that for the sake of keeping Tegan in the game, but I did not know Tegan was receiving a majority of the votes until late into tribal council. I had sent tons of whispers to multiple people seeing if I should vote for you (namely to Michelle and Mat), or to vote for Ben, which I think had gotten thrown up at the end towards tribal starting as a name that Tegan had thrown out, because I think that Ben was wanting to go for her. So I thought that Baden, Sharn, Daisy, were going to vote for you. I was unclear of what David and you were wanting to do until in to tribal, and then it occurred to me that the votes to save Tegan weren't there. If I had known she was in that much danger earlier, I would have pushed harder probably to vote you or Baden out, since those were the two names that seemed like they were being considered at the beginning of that round. Looking back on it, I feel a bit betrayed by David in particular, because I think his connection with Ben was keeping heat off of Ben amongst our group. I also feel a bit betrayed by you in the same regard.
And you're acting like I waited until tribal council started to get a name thrown out. I spent the time before leaving work, drove home, still checking my phone as much as I could even on the way home trying to figure out what to do, and the 30 minutes before diligently trying to figure it out. I got misted on two fronts at the beginning of the round that led to a scramble. I'd heard Tegan was an option but I didn't think it was going to happen until it was too late. But I'd still protected myself no matter what, and this is also what led me to playing such a double sided game, because this really showed me that I was under the thumb of you guys, but I wanted it to remain I still was for as long as I could.
also ben i am ESPECIALLY excited for after the game to talk to you >:)
