I appreciate the passion, Mat; hopefully we can get some things cleared up here. I also just want to mention before I get into things that you were THE first person in the game that I potentially saw an end game with. We started off the game, and we did the whole final 2 thing, and we talked a lot and got really close, and I meant every word of it until it slowly started to dissolve. I sent you coins to show you I trusted you and you shared the clues with me. Out of the Imanpas, I was always closest with you, but it quickly became evident to me once we merged that you were not seeing the game as a Mat and Jarrad thing the way that I once was, and I saw yourself seeing it as High King Mat and the Royal Court. Both of our faults, but the relationship that we had fostered at the beginning quickly dwindled once merge started. I'm not sure if you just got too comfortable with me or the Bananas or what, or if it was the opposite and you started to get suspicious of me, but it was never addressed. And so in my reality, once merge started, I was never your number 1. I think you know by now that perception is reality, and that in this game, the reality of the game you're playing might not match up with the realities of others.
I tell myself every time I do one of these not to be bitter and I almost always end up bitter. I was at peace with my elimination and it made total game sense for pretty much everyone involved. Great game, I’m out, zero bitterness. Then I read your parchment and fuck if it all didn’t come back. Jarrad, who betrayed who first???
I betrayed you first. But, keep in mind, perception is reality. My parchment said this.
"It's time for me to realize what I have at stake. You and David both lied to me last round after giving me your loyalty, and so that ruined it. You are arguably the biggest threat to win here so far and it would be dumb for me not to do this. Good game, buddy." At this point, I don't know how much you know, or what you think of me, or anything. For me, this is painting the picture that I am getting back at you for what you just did to me, which was correct, but also much more. Up until this point, we had voted together every single round, and although
I knew that
you knew I was close with other people, I didn't think you knew just how close I was. So I can see from your POV, knowing that I was already wheeling and dealing and having side things going on at all times, how this seems like I'm "taking the moral high ground," but I want you to know that I used that parchment as a way of CONTINUING what I'd already been doing, which is self preservation. The name of the game is SURVIVOR, as in, one who SURVIVES. To think that anyone could sit here and have executed a game in which their insight was 100% correct all of the time would be dumb, but I was acting with the insight of me salvaging a relationship with David after the vote with you, just in the same way that I tried to do with you after you, David, and Sharn, had just voted for Michelle against me. It seems completely logical and was successful. I could have said something neutral on the parchment but I decided not to, as a game decision.
But absolutely I did betray you first. I betrayed you as soon as I willingly made a final 3 with Michelle and Tegan, and I betrayed you after Michelle, Tegan, and me decided that it was the night Kylie would leave, and I gave them my word that it was cool to do and that I was going to vote in the minority for the benefit of the three of our games. That did benefit the three of us, but it benefited me the most, because I was still able to remain close with you, David, and Sarah. I betrayed you again once I got closer to Sharn after Tegan's vote out and spoke specifically with Sharn about the threat that you stood in this game. What's a bit confusing to me is where you think I'm not owning the betrayal? The proof is in the pudding. I've already stated where my loyalties lied and how they were never closely aligned with the Imanpas, because I truly didn't see myself in any of y'all's plans either.
Also, this next part, where you say I played the victim so often, disappeared for rounds? When did I disappear for rounds? I disappeared for I think two days total out of the entire game, and I did it intentionally at a time where I had the ability to, which is when I went camping. I knew specifically based on how
every weekend prior I pretty much just sat online all day waiting for something to happen and nothing happening that it probably wouldn't be that big of a deal, and so I really think that's lame to be using against me. Never did I let the game happen around me or take an approach where I was not being proactive in the game, or discussing the vote, or letting people do my dirty work. I was the one doing everyone else's dirty work, and ultimately leading to their demise. I painted targets on several people here, and can honestly say I've done nothing but put all of my spare energy and free time into this game for the past 30 days. There was one single challenge where I didn't try as hard as I could have, and that was the rock stacking challenge. Quite frankly, I could have won that challenge. You'll see after the game I had a practice thread that topped Michelle's score, but I decided against going for it, for the very same reason that Ben was labeled as a challenge beast. I already was looked at as someone skilled in challenges, so I made the calculated approach to say that I was exhausted. There was another challenge that I did not finish, and that was due no part to my own for just simply overestimating my ability to complete it at work, and then conversely getting in trouble and having to get back to work.
Obviously you would have loved to see a more vicious and cutthroat and nasty version of me, but I wouldn't be here if I played that way. If I did play that way, and I have before, I end up in a late jury spot or where Sharn is, so close and yet so far. I took the opposite approach and INTENTIONALLY drug my name through the mud so that it would give me the best odds of ending up here at the end with a shot to win. I was that confident in my ability to know that I could make myself look weak even though I was the strongest player here and that's exactly why I never received a single vote to leave this game. I knew exactly what I was doing to ensure that myself and myself
only was protected above all else. I covered my bases every single round to make sure that there were not going to be many or preferably, if any, votes on me at all, and there never were.
And just to prove that perception really is reality:
David's game is in no ways this astronomically better game than mine. We both had ways of surviving, and mine was the most secure. I have never tried to back away from my own betrayals other than when I was IN the game, and that's because I knew that was going to keep me safe and keep you guys painted as the bad guys with more blood on their hands. I played a game I'm very proud of, and I trust you to see the value in the game I played and reward me with it. My survival was never an accident.